I think you're addicted to rehab
I think you're addicted to detox
Well not so much the process -
As the outpouring of love it unlocks
It's not that you want to get sober
It's not that you want to come clean
But it's the only way that you'll ever feel
(Ever feel ever feel ever feel)
A shadow of the love that you need
You don't have to succeed -
You don't even have to try
All you have to do is promise
And remind them of all of their lies
(chorus)
I think you're addicted to losing, too -
And I suspect you're strung out on "poor"
'Cause no one ever expects you to repay
All those debts of love from before
And it's because they only do it for themselves
Which is why they don't care if you heal
Their empathy and nods
make them closer to gods
Than anything in their lives that is real
(chorus)
Nobody can really keep track
Of who's clean or wet in this town
You can almost milk it without doing a thing
If you keep moving your stories around
If you keep moving your works around
If you keep moving that shitshow around
(chorus)
2/6/23
Postscript
I used to write hope into my songs about junkies
And the warmth that would someday be theirs
But this faded away with each I knew better
And their displays of self-unawares
